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Time for something DIFFERENT

So this is Life as a diabetic...

Today I went to see my doctor, I have been going to urgent care to avoid me seeing him. My doctor, let me explain why I have not been going to see him.  He is like a big brother to me, one who you do not want to disappoint. Someone who when you go see him, the only reason you remember he is a doctor is the fact he has on the white coat and tells you to take a deep breath when he puts the stethoscope on your back. Otherwise its like a family member in which you just do not want to disappoint. Then my nurse, she is more like a friend. No we don't do lunch on my off days or talk on the fact. She just accepted me on her facebook (yeah I know lol). But she and I talk, laugh and I as nice as I am I am kind of mean to the other nurse. But today, I thought I would be able to go back to work and instead I was told I would have to get my shit together. Maybe not in those words but something like it.  My best friend has told me the HORRORS of being a diabetic and what I can look forward too if I don't get things like they need to be. Right now, I just took my numbers and I am AGAIN over 400.  So what the hell am I doing. I have so many family and friends worried. Not just those I know in my real life, but my virtual life as well. Funny how people you never seen before can care and worry about you and want you to take care of yourself.  Even with those who truly care and mean it I need to get my shit on point for ME!  I have a group on facebook that was meant to help each other go through the hard times and I am so ashamed of my NON progress that I don't even speak in it any longer. My reason for making the group was  to help others and it seems like I am the one who needs the help.  I want to just be happy in my life, I don't want anyone to fear sorry for me I want to be able to stand up and do what I need to do to live a happy healthy life. My numbers are SHIT, there I said it and in order for me to gain control I need to GAIN CONTROL. This blog btw won't be just about diabetes, dieting and trying to get control. There will be happy things too. My blogalk radio crap, my little black dress, my sims, my many projects.  Just needed to vent here. OK ALL DONE.

I AM BACK WORLD!

It has been a LONG time since I have sat at the computer and open up my blog.  Funny how something I use to do almost daily has become something I never do any longer.  However, I want that to change.  So here goes, hopefully I get others to read  (insert hopes and smiles here). I use to have a decent following on my blog. People actual wanted to read what I had to say. Then along came blogtalk radio and I found myself having those followers tune me in on the internet to hear my voice. Then came my on the grid talk show. Frankly, I prefer my blog talk radio more. I had more ppl listening and I felt more comfortable with the show over all.  There is a lot I want to share with each of you and I guess this will be a good way to do so.  So here goes. I AM BACK WORLD, stay tunned!

EXCITEMENT

I can not even begin to say how excited I am to start my virtual life all over again. The only difference is I start it fresh with a new set of eyes but the same old avatar and the same old me. I have a lot planned out and hope family and friends will join me on my journey to just have fun, live life and enjoy what God has given me. 

STAY TUNNED

Carter Christenson Recipe for Whiskey Sour

• .80 oz Fresh lemon juice
• .80 oz Simple syrup (one part water, one part sugar)
• 1.5 oz Bourbon or Jack Daniels
  • Garnish with Cherry and/or lemon wedge

I am here for FUN!

The things I do are not for Lindens, not for SL Fame, I don't set out to be in completion with anyone. This isn't a race for me. i am not trying to be the first one who finishes. I don't have the need to seen by all. I just need to be notice by the few who want to see me succeed.  Who I am in sl and slfb is who I am behind the computer. I do what i do because I am here to enjoy my second life, and enjoy my virtual family and friends. I have and will continue to support others on what they do. I don't need anyone to criticize me because Truly my biggest critic is MYSELF. I don't ask to be liked, I don't seek approval from anyone but myself. . I have been blessed with people in my life who truly support all my crazy ideas, antics, projects and my wannados.  When I am called upon to do something for someone else I do it to the best of my abilities. It makes me feel good when someone ask me to speak, ask for advice or just want to be apart of my sl world.  Trust me when I say I do what I do for fun, to move away from boredom, to make others smile, to make others laugh, to uplift, to empower, to find some true happiness within a world that seems to be decaying each day.  I don't throw shade at others, I don't mimic anyone else, I don't feel the need to bring someone else down to built myself up.  "I have always said I don't want fans, I want supporters" I always feel blessed when people around me support me, They care about me.  With all the things I have started Sugaliciousme Talk Show, Blogtalk, Grid Watch News, R2VE Studios, Little Black Dress, Love Yourself First, our upcoming Greek Life and The Cookie Factory I have been blessed to have people behind me who cheer me on, hug me when I need it, tell me I can when at points I think I can NOT. I have so many who support all that I do.  I would never be able to do what I do If not for my friends, family and supporters. The only reward I need, I want, I look for are the rewards of people who truly believe in me, those who support me, those who trust me, those who give me encouragement, those who pray over me, those who talk to me when I feel like I am at the end of my rope, those who just leave me a message saying "hope your ok".  That is my fame, that is my payment, that is ALL I need.  Thank you, to all that believe in me. Your the reason I do what  I do.  Even if I only have one person who cheers me on, who believes in me, who trust what I do and they are genuine. That is ALL I need!

P & A Shade